Maybe I'm too nice.
I've always been pretty polite to people's faces. When the kids in school made fun of me (I was too fat, too adopted, dressed weird, too whatever for them most of the time) I tried to just ignore it and bitch about them later. That's been my MO for much of my life, it's way easier than actually saying "hey! That was really shitty, why did you do that?" Lately that's changed some but now that things at work have been so stressful and weird, I'm less and less capable of standing up for myself. Today alone, that's meant not questioning it when I was told that despite what I'd been told earlier, it's now not likely that I'll get back pay and not borrowing a car to drive 4 blocks for lunch. I don't think I can keep my mouth shut for much longer.