My Own Issue
We're supposed to go to a friend's wedding this weekend but for some reason, we've really put off preparations for it. We have a hotel reservation and a dogsitter lined up but I've given no thought to a gift and now that I have, I'm looking at the registry items and getting pissed off. Not at my friend, who should by all means have a great wedding and a happy life, but at a society that celebrates the hell out of straight people and largely ignores or beats up gay people. I've always asked 'where's my Cusinart?' and seeing the Cusinart listed on their registry set me off.

Why do I have to get a domestic partner affidavit notarized to get benefits for Andrea but straight people are taken at their word that they're married? Why can't I marry her in a church like the rest of the world (and please do not tell me it's because we're sinful people leading sinful lives. So are you.)? Why can't I register for fluffy towels and new kitchen shit (even though we've been living together for almost 6 years and have fluffy towels and don't cook)? Why is it so damn hard for people to understand that my relationship with hers is no different than a straight couples, except of course that we've lasted longer than most of our straight friends have?

I'm having a serious mental block about buying this gift and attending this wedding. Totally my issue. I wish my friend and his bride all the best.

The other thing that's preventing me from wanting to go is my Grandma. She's 96 and has been in declining health since 1999. She's been my best friend since the day we met in 1973. Lately she's been talking about being ready to die and today for the first time my mom said 'yeah, I think she's ready to go'. Mom's never said that. I think I should go to Columbus this weekend and see her, though I worry that seeing me will make her less likely to go if she's ready.