Gun Shy
It's also 2 months until I cna't play hockey as much as I do now, eventually I won't be able to play at all (yes, I plan to play as much as I feel up to, in the more 'friendly' leagues where I play. Yes, I've discussed this with my doctor, yes, comments from the Internet peanut gallery on this topic will be filed under Assvice). And that's the thing. As much as I love the idea of being a mom, I'm not quite sure I'm ready to give up my hockey-focused life just yet.
But as Ellen, mom of a lovely 8 year old boy, says, there's never a good time. But it's always the right time. I just need to remind myself of that.
Our friends delivered their baby on April 4. They're not unlike us -- together for about 9 years, adamant in planning their baby's conception and arrival, obviously very in love with each other and their baby. All well and good except that baby Delilah was born with a subdural hematoma and a malformed brain. She's not expected to survive, this well-planned baby born to moms who did everything right along the way.
I think more than not being ready to give up our life as we know it, my sudden hesitation comes from thinking if it could happen to our friends, it could happen to us.
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I had a good friend who had a beautiful baby girl named Emily. She had congenital heart defects and only lived for about a year. However, she touched so many lives and was truly an angel on earth. Her parents were blessed with another child a year after her passing (Jack) and he is perfectly healthy, and helping to heal his parents' hearts. I think you just kind of have to have faith that you're doing the right thing. I can't think of two better parents than you and Andrea - Walt & I are pulling for you and can't wait to meet Murray. :-) ~Dena~
By Anonymous, at 12:43 PM
First off, the odds of somethinig like that happening are in your favor, so you shouldn't be so worried. I know, easier said than done. Also, think of all your friends it didn't happen too.
Having said that useless crap, just keep in mind that if it should happen to you that you will find a strength you never knew you had to deal with it even though your friends know it's there. I know you and Andrea will be able to handle anything that comes your way with this child. Look at how you pulled together and helped Zeus. Yes, I know he's a dog, but he is just as much a part of your family as little Murray Apple will be. I have faith in you guys.
By snarfdog, at 11:36 AM
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