Not Quite Sure Where To Post This

Whether this belongs on my main blog or here on Val's, I'm not sure. But it applies to us both, so here it is.

This week, I had my first ever Real Breastfeeding Meltdown. We were in Disneyland and at the parks all day so I had pretty much no chance to pump enough bottles to carry with us. Lucky for me, they have a really nice air-conditioned area where you can breastfeed. But after 5 days of shlepping to that area every 2-3 hours, then staring at the same uglyass pictures on the wall while Val ate, I'd had enough.

Looking back, if I'd been able to pump enough that we only had to go there once or twice a day, I think I would have fared better. But the logistics were pretty tough for that -- if I was at the baby care center, it was to feed Val, not to pump.

But I wasn't that wise at the moment. When we left the last night, I found myself thinking 'hey, formula's not so hard to mix, let's just give her some of that instead.' We thought about going back to the park for one more day, but I couldn't bear it. So we went home and back to our routine, which allows for more pumping.

All I could find on the helpful internet about feeling this way was some lameass shit about 'you won't love breastfeeding all the time.' Gee thanks.